I got a screw loose - moods like a monsoon, short fuse - go boom when they talk rude
If you real we can vibe - I support truth, your whole life is a lie man I saw through
On edge, up on the wrong side of the bed, nothing right inside of my head
I've been climbing and fighting a downward spiral, drowning and writing it down in a cycle
Spin round like the wheels of a bike do, biting my tongue, wanna scream I don't like you
See red, got a birds eye view, and I hate what I hear - they don't speak the truth
I feel alien, I don't relate to them, I dodge stones thrown from an atrium
They wanna play pretend, try to shake my hand, but I'm staring at the ground, I aint here to make friends
I've seen too much to be naive, I dream too much - I need more sleep
You speak too much and talk is cheap, gotta crawl 'fore you walk and the road is steep
I'm overwhelmed beyond the realm of normal comprehension
Tension form between myself and anyone who trigger memories
Leave me to my own devices, need to find the right way to avert the crisis
Life seem fine when I'm high like pilots, fly through years and my brain stay silent
Otherwise thoughts sound loud sirens, sober is scary - I hope I survive it
I'm overly wary of my environment, snakes that hide in it, lost my mind a bit
Found my feet but they're out of order, out of breath, out my head
Fish out of water, shell shocked in a daze and I can't look forward
Can't believe what I hear, it might get distorted
Why'd you have to be so reckless Laura? You could've gone and made a future for us
Instead of being stupid - poor us
Now what the fuck you left with stupid? Not much
Fall short like I always do
But I get back up, it ain't the same for you
Square one is my second home, and I'm never by myself when i'm all alone, cos
I got ghosts behind my back, some breathe, some don't
Never let me relax and I don't know just who I am
But I hope I find out with myself in tact
How the fuck we gonna get out of here?
Take your time you gonna run out of years
Forever stuck, suffocated by fear
Tough luck - its your choice, you're steering the wheel
Good point - guess I better focus
Take a deep breath, come back to this moment
Short straw, thoughts swarm like locusts
Voice in my head said you can't fix hopeless
One door shuts and another one opens
Everybody on their smart phones, too numb to notice
I just wanna waste time like Otis
Set me free - I wanna fly over oceans
Get lost in a place where i'm nameless
And have to rely on the kindness of strangers
Thats real - I wanna feel something more
Than too far gone - I wanna prove me wrong
Cos it's been too long and it's home made hell
And I'll be damned if i'm gonna let me lose to myself
Said it's homemade hell
And i'll be damned if i'm gonna let me lose to myself
Now no one gonna go and take advantage
I had a couple falls - got up I'm still standing
Their loss if they take you for granted
Your life, so you set the standard
You decide what you deserve
Cos, once its live - now the blisters burn
You - none the wise - no lesson learned
Act surprised every time the repercussions hurt
Like you have no say
Do it all again, live the same old day
You don't put in work so you don't get paid
All you take is regrets and mistakes to the grave